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Sunday, 14 October 2007
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7 Years, 1 Month, 6 Days
That's how long it took for it to finally be over.
Going back a bit, the story of my childhood is a long and complex one. Some of you know the story, and for those who don't I will try to summarize it, although it is easier to tell in person. Basically my mother is a very screwed up person. She was abusive both physically as well as emotionally. She did things that were both outright abusive and covertly demeaning. Fast-forward to August 18, 2000... my birthday. This is the day that she hands my father the divorce papers. During this time, many things happen. We sit down in the front room, parents on the couch, me on the rocker across from them and they break the news... she is moving to California one way or another, whether we come or not. (Keep in mind that my subconscious has blocked out most of my childhood which means that I cannot remember the order in which things happened or all the details about them). A decision is made to make a last ditch effort. We fly out to California and stay at my grandmothers while looking at the schools around the area. None compare to the High School I was currently attending. We decide that my father and I cannot leave everything behind and move out there. I sit at a table, me on the long end, father on one side and mother on the other. You can guess what happens next... They ask me who I want to live with. The decision was already made, I wasn't going to leave one of the best schools in the country. Mother goes and crys on the couch. Grandmother kicks father and I out, so we fly back to Chicago that night.
Fast Forward a bit... She packs up the house and moves it all with her to California. The house that I grew up in. She takes Everything, toilet paper and kleenex included. She leaves behind a sole pot that can barely boil two cups of water and says that my father and I should be able to live with that. We look at the finances and find that she has stolen $40,000.00 from my father. he put her through school and when she started work around 1998 and secretly opened a bank account in her name only and told no one. She put all of her earnings into that, using my fathers income to pay the bills and feed her account. Of course my father trusted her and let her handle the bills for the bulk of the marriage. In addition to the $40K she stole, she stole all of my college funds, and tried stealing all of my family's bonds. I found them in her boxes and stole them back before she had a chance to run away with them.
FF... She freezes all of our money and we almost lose the house, along with all of the red letters we got from the Utility companies. Finally she forces us to sell the house. I lose my place to live and have to find a friend at school who is willing to take me in. Between then and now I have had around 10 addresses.
It takes 4 years before the Divorce is finally finalized because both parties refuse to come to an agreement on the terms of the divorce. She is supposed to pay 1/2 of all my schooling expenses, tuition, books, room and board, and medical bills. The next year or 2 are spent fighting with her to fulfill her half of the agreement. It is bullshit excuse after bullshit excuse as to why she won't pay. Check out this sample: http://pics.livejournal.com/nickalusz/gallery/0000gyw5
FF... I get fed up with the Bullshit, which my father had started to accept, and take her to court One... Last... Time. This time it is the most difficult one yet. I hit rock bottom, afraid of not being able to afford to eat, let alone go to college. This is where I have been for the past few months. She is not paying her part of the bills, and my father not paying his part because he cant afford to....
http://tinyurl.com/3xeapa shows just how long this fight has been going on. What it doesn't show is all the emotional turmoil that has occurred along the way, such as the call from my grandmother at 1am telling me how I am killing my mother (a good listen if you haven't heard it yet).
Today I get a call from my father just after he got out of court. After 7 long years of constant struggle in court, we have finally won. There will be no more court dates. No more lawyers. She has to pay everything she owes up to this point. Half of everything, all the school expenses, all the medical expenses. She has to pay for half of everything from this point forward. Half the tuition, half of books, half of medical expenses, half the rent, and a stipend for food. Things may not be easy all of a sudden, but at least the fight is over. Now the countdown to when we actually see the money begins, at least on a happy note :)
Friday, 17 February 2006
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Josh (12:12:09 AM): my arms don't straighten all the way
Nick Z (12:12:11 AM): my pinky has that problem too
Josh (12:12:12 AM): it's weird
Nick Z (12:12:20 AM): its funny
Josh (12:12:20 AM): lol, i wish only my pinky had that problem
Nick Z (12:12:24 AM): hahaha
Josh (12:12:35 AM): mine had it for a while but that was cause i broke it
Josh (12:12:37 AM): and dislocated it
Nick Z (12:12:47 AM): Yuck!
Nick Z (12:13:00 AM): G-roossssssss
Josh (12:13:13 AM): yeah, it was really gross, i saved the xrays
Josh (12:13:26 AM): bend your pinky and then flip it upside down, thats what it looked like
Josh (12:13:37 AM): definitely not supposed to bend that way
Nick Z (12:13:55 AM): ew ew ewwwwww
Josh (12:14:03 AM): the distal bone was resting on the one medial to it
Josh (12:14:16 AM):
Nick Z (12:14:26 AM): man
Nick Z (12:14:32 AM): maybe being a surgeon isnt for me
Josh (12:16:23 AM): lol
Josh (12:16:31 AM): i freaked out the nurses at schoo
Josh (12:16:32 AM): l
Josh (12:17:11 AM): it happened in gym, and i came to them and i'm like, i think i dislocated my finger, and they're like, oh, ok, lets check, so i took off the towel i had on it, and they screamed and called the other nurses over to look
Nick Z (12:18:50 AM): hhahaha
Nick Z (12:18:57 AM): good medical practitioners
Nick Z (12:19:01 AM): scream and stare
Sunday, 29 January 2006
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Currently Listening
Hung Up
By Madonna
see relatedSo I finally got around to planning my life. And while I did it I filled out an application for readmittance back into the honros program, although I know I will be disqualified for being late. Oh well...
But more importantly, here is the rest of my Undergrad Career:
The College Gods have Spoken!Of course, it is preliminary right now, I emailed it to both my advisor and the advisor in LAS, hoping it will work out. The idea of planning courses this far ahead is absurd, cause you can never tell if they can logistically fit into a weeks schedule w/o overlapping etc. But this is what they want.
The other note is that I will be graduating in FA 08, if I go 17 hours a semester, which is less than I have been doing. This would mean I would graduate with two degrees in a mere 4 year period.
I can also choose to take 14 hours a semester and graduate a semester later, in the SP 09.
Hmmmmm.
Decisions Decisions.... for now I think I will stick with the 17/sem. Just cause I like a busy schedule. Although 14 a sem is a nice looking choice, cause I can go crazy with electives and organisations and such. Hmmmmmm
Tuesday, 24 January 2006
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I H8 STALKERS!!!!!!!!
So this person starts IMing me about a month before I returned. He is constantly trying to call me and force me to pick up the phone. He also kept saying "when are you going to meet me?" once i got back to UofI. I kept putting him off cause he is freakin me out. So he shows up at the meeting tonight, and I try to ignore him. Luckily i notice an opportunity, and have a friend direct him to his place while i slip away. SO i get to my room and find him messaging me, this is after i farted around downstairs for a while with friends.... read on
John Doe: pssssssssst
John Doe: how many times will i tell you honey
John Doe: to pay proper attention when i m around
John Doe: listen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
John Doe: :)
John Doe: heyyyyyyyyyyy
John Doe: where r u??????
Nick Z: what does : "btw u talk to less" mean?
John Doe: i meant too less
John Doe: and i think thats why u dont talk on the phone
Nick Z: still doesnt make sense
Nick Z: what do you mean?
John Doe: i meant
John Doe: u were quiet most of the time
John Doe: at busey evans
John Doe: at the meeting u had to talk, so u did
John Doe: and u didnt even TRY talking to me
John Doe: just a noddish hi
John Doe: so tell me
John Doe: if we will meet now (apart from the meetings)?
Nick Z: not yet
John Doe: ok thats better than maybe
John Doe: but why not yet?
John Doe: what does that mean?
John Doe: and when would the time be ripe??
John Doe: dont tell me that the condition is that I keep coming to the meetings
John Doe: I might be busy sometimes
John Doe: and I did this time just bcoz u told me "I told u a way to come and meet me"
John Doe: i asked u so many things answer them
John Doe: see
John Doe: i mean u see
John Doe: u only listen to me
John Doe: dont say anything!
Nick Z: becuase you sure do demand a lot
John Doe: ha ha ha
John Doe: ok only say
John Doe: what u can fulfill
John Doe: is that fine?
John Doe: and i do
John Doe: bcoz i like you
John Doe: and think u'll do whatever i say
John Doe: u see i m so pampered
John Doe: by parents and friends!
Nick Z: You think that I will do whatever you say?
Nick Z: is that what you just said?
John Doe: yes i did
John Doe: but ummm ... not now
John Doe: once u know me well
Nick Z: is your email #########
Nick Z: haha
Nick Z: unfortunately you are wrong
John Doe: but since i m in a habit of assuming that
John Doe: so that happens
Nick Z: is that your email?
John Doe: just a sec
Nick Z: you dont know your email?
John Doe: i dont remember that the 11 is there or not
John Doe: so lemme check
Nick Z: you wrote ################
John Doe: no i wrote 2 ones clearly
John Doe: and it is #######
John Doe: i remember it correctly :)
John Doe: is that fine ?
John Doe: okie
John Doe: done with ur work??
John Doe: now
John Doe: now do u have time for me????
John Doe: :))
Nick Z: i just got done entereing all the emails
Nick Z: =))
John Doe: good boy
John Doe: u know what i like u ver much
John Doe: and i m serious
John Doe: and so i like teasing you
John Doe: and fighting with you and showing that i can demand things/time from you
John Doe: and hope that u'll give me/ do whatever i want
John Doe: it is somehow subconsciouc
Nick Z: haha
Nick Z: you are gonna find another thing coming to you if you keep up that mindset
John Doe: yup
John Doe: what???
John Doe: tell me!!!!!!
John Doe: tell me
John Doe: tell me
John Doe: see this is what i like
John Doe: being frank/kiddish in front of friends
John Doe: and today i m too happy bcoz i saw you
John Doe: btw u r growing a tummy!!
John Doe: control, honey ........
John Doe: u didnt tell me what am i gonna get if .. ?
John Doe: again --
John Doe: tell me
John Doe: plz
John Doe: plz plz
John Doe: hey tell me fast
John Doe: i got to sleep
John Doe: have a class in the morning
John Doe: and now u hv seen me
John Doe: and given ur phone no
John Doe: so u r going to talk to me on phone when i call u
John Doe: ok????
John Doe: given ur phone no as in on ur visiting card
John Doe: and when r u goin to show me ur dorm?
John Doe: ok too many demands for a day
John Doe: u can take ur time fulfilling them
John Doe: :))
John Doe: hey write something
Nick Z: make me
John Doe: ???
John Doe: what does that mean?
John Doe: aah make u write
John Doe: i just did
John Doe: anyways
Nick Z: are you sure you are a grad student?
John Doe: ha ha ha
John Doe: i sound like a child, right?
John Doe: i seriously wish i wasnt
John Doe: i feel so stifled arnd those serious grad students
John Doe: i felt so good today among grads
John Doe: discussing 'normal' life
John Doe: remembering old days
John Doe: seriously
John Doe: and u can help me
John Doe: by letting me a friend
John Doe: through him i can still enjoy undergrad life
John Doe: did u read all that?
Nick Z: i read it all
John Doe: good
John Doe: sorry got somethings wrong
John Doe: "and u can help me by letting me be a friend through whom i can still enjoy undergrad life"
John Doe: so why did u ask that am i sure that i m a grad student?
John Doe: answer honey!
John Doe: hey didnt i tell u that i hv to go and sleep
John Doe: in hindi - "jaldi bolo na"
John Doe: which means pls say it fast
John Doe: nick!
John Doe: ok dont keep me waiting
John Doe: i wont sleep till u say goodbye
Nick Z: so how many all nighters you pull so far?
John Doe: lots
John Doe: u wud say i am mad
John Doe: but when i do it for ppl
John Doe: they slowly realize that i m not crazy
John Doe: but that i love my friends and so i do it for them
John Doe: anyways say goodbye now like a good bye
John Doe: i'll talk to you tom, ok?
John Doe: gnite!
John Doe: :*
John Doe: :*
Nick Z: =D>
John Doe: gnite and love u!
John Doe: bbye
John Doe: :_h
John Doe: :-h
Nick Z: #:-S
John Doe: :*
John Doe: :x
John Doe: =(( u break my heart
John Doe: but i still like u ;)
John Doe: see u soon :D
John Doe: bbye honeyAfter all this, he proceeds to send me messages in AIM that said "I hope i dont make bad impression" I said "You hope wrong" he didnt understand so i just said "What did you just say you hoped? well you are wrong" he was like "
YOu make me feel bad but I dont care" Then he said "one last thing.
I want you to know I love you."My response was back in Yahoo messenger with an emoticon of a person "At wits end" aka pulling their hair out.
he then responded "
oh well, i look forward to seeing you soon. bbye honey"OMFG!!!! SAVE ME!!!!!!!!
Saturday, 14 January 2006
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UIUC Bandwidth Speed Test 1/13/2006
Look at how fast the Internet is.. Holy Friggin Crap!
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